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September 19, 2021
Stoics were onto something. Sometimes I use their techniques to not get caught in pointless emotional whirlpools. It definitely works. I have to practice it more often.

September 18, 2021
On bended knee is no way to be free
Lifting up an empty cup I ask silently
That all my destinations will accept the one that’s me
So I can breathe

Circles they grow and they swallow people whole
Half their lives they say goodnight to wives they’ll never know
Got a mind full of questions and a teacher in my soul
And so it goes

Don’t come closer or I’ll have to go
Holding me like gravity are places that pull
If ever there was someone to keep me at home
It would be you

Everyone I come across in cages they bought
They think of me and my wandering but I’m never what they thought
Got my indignation but I’m pure in all my thoughts
I’m alive

Wind in my hair, I feel part of everywhere
Underneath my being is a road that disappeared
Late at night I hear the trees, they’re singing with the dead
Overhead

Leave it to me as I find a way to be
Consider me a satellite forever orbiting
I knew all the rules but the rules do not know me
Guaranteed

– EV

September 17, 2021
Every once in a while I take a deep breath and watch how the time passes. Life is fleeting. We are not going to be here forever..
or are we?

September 16, 2021
I have found a way to fix myself.

September 15, 2021
I am extremely sad today. I don’t know what to write.

September 14, 2021
Do you ever wonder what the point of it all is? Is there even a point?

September 13, 2021
“There is a pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is a rapture on the lonely shore,
There is society, where none intrudes,
By the deep Sea, and music in its roar:
I love not Man the less, but Nature more,
From these our interviews, in which I steal
From all I may be, or have been before,
To mingle with the Universe, and feel
What I can ne’er express, yet cannot all conceal.”
– LB

September 12, 2021
I have been appointed the ambassador of the Kingdom of Fungus to Bangladesh. 🍄

September 11, 2021
“At sunset in Genoa, I heard from a tower a long chiming of bells: it kept on and on, and over the noise of the backstreets, as if insatiable for itself, it rang out into the evening sky and the sea air, so terrible and so childish at the same time, so melancholy. Then I thought of Plato’s words and felt them suddenly in my heart: all in all, nothing human is worth taking very seriously; nevertheless.” – FN

September 10, 2021
I was so fascinated by the Allegory of the cave when I first came across it in 2012. It made such a deep impression on me that I still think about it from time to time. Here’s a wonderful clay animation of Plato’s cave: https://youtu.be/69F7GhASOdM

September 9, 2021
Are we slaves to our genes, hormones, upbringing and random events of the physical world? Do we really have any freedom? Freedom is so elusive. There are people who believe they are free even though they are in shackles. Do you think you are free? If not, do you think you can free yourself? Well think again..

September 8, 2021
There are so many kinds of people in this world. Some are kind, humble, honest and straightforward. Some are cruel, arrogant, deceitful and manipulative. Some are after money, power, attention and sex. Some are after growth, wisdom, equanimity and contentment. What kind of a human are you? Are you able to see your own flaws and weaknesses? Or do you think you are perfect?

September 7, 2021
I am truly grateful for my family, friends and students. My entire family is on the other side of the planet. Living alone for one and a half years made me realize how much they mean to me. My friends are few and far away but they have supported me during the recent shit-storm that I had naively got myself into. My students, both current and old, gives meaning to my fleeting life. They motivate me to learn more and grow. Without these people in my life, I’d be rotting in a grave.

September 6, 2021
Overjoyed by yesterday’s development I ended up buying a ticket to the Maldives. I have been resisting myself for long enough. I just couldn’t help it. Screw financial concerns. I can’t say no when the Ocean calls.

September 5, 2021
After two months of meticulous work, constant care and an insane amount of patience, my babies have finally been born! I am so excited today! 🙂

September 4, 2021
The current trimester at my university will end soon. Where am I going to go? I have to go somewhere or I’ll die from cabin fever. Somewhere far away from here. I’ll sell some of my belongings if I have to. I don’t think I’ve been so desperate in my entire life.

September 3, 2021
“Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There’s a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we’ve been so many times”
– PF

September 2, 2021
Why is it so difficult to keep life simple? Why does it get so complicated so easily? Is it because of some sort of existential entropy? Have I found a way to make life simpler? Maybe. Only time can tell.

September 1, 2021
It is so hilarious that I have opened an Instagram account and posted over a hundred photos within the span of a few days. What a way to use instagram!